Have Faith 11 – I’m sorry

A/N : MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT PO SA MGA BUMATI! Nakakatuwa po kasi parang nagka-family na rin po ako dito. Sniff. Haha. Salamat po ulit!!

Pasensya na po kung gabi na ‘to. Haha. Nagblow out po sina Daddy eh.

Wait lang po sa 12. Matatapos ko na po. 🙂 Enjoy!


“Hija. Are you okay?” Roberto said when he saw Maya sitting at the garden.

“Ay opo, Sir. Pasensya na po.”
“it’s okay. Is something wrong? May I?” He said, asking Maya’s permission if he can sit beside her.

Maya could only nod. “Pasensya na po talga kayo Sir –“

“Call me Tito. Well, only here. Kapag sa trabaho, Sir na, okay?”

Maya gave a smile and wiped the remaining tears on her face.

“May problema ka ba Maya?”

Seeing Roberto’s innocent face, Maya decided to give in. How can she resist the man who looks exactly like her angel? “Uhm, na .. na –“

“It’s okay, Maya.” Roberto gave her a smile. “You don’t have to tell me if you’re not ready. You can count on me kahit na boss mo ako, okay?”

Maya could only give him a nod. Seeing Roberto this nice to her just makes her feel guiltier. If I told him about Richard, I’m sure that he would want to talk to him and it will lead to the recovery of Richard’s memory. Gee! It’s all too complicated! But I want to tell him so badly, if it wasn’t because of his situation. I want to tell him how his son is doing; how kind and thoughtful he is and how he made me fall in love with him. I just can’t. There’s too much at stake.


“Maya, let’s go inside? Esmeralda is worried about you. Dinner is also ready. That is, if you still want to eat with us? I could ask Joma to drive you home if you want-” Roberto brought her back from her reverie.

“Ay, hindi po. Tara na po sa taas.” She replied as she wipes her tears. She tried to put on a smile so that Roberto wouldn’t suspect anything.




Maya decided to continue the dinner between her angel’s parents and her. She never thought that they would actually be a good company. There was never a dull moment. The two kept asking Maya about her personal life and she willingly answers them. They even learned about her accident over the weekend. It made Esmeralda worry so much to the point that she even inspected her closely just to check if she still has those bruises.


“Maya, would you mind if I ask you kung bakit ganon na lang yung reaksyon mo nung nakita mo yung picture ni Ricky?” Esmeralda asked as they were having coffee.

“Uhm –“
“Esmeralda, don’t pry. Ayaw pag-usapan ni Maya eh.” Roberto said.

“May .. may naalala lang po ako nung nakita ko yung picture nay un. May kahawig po kasi si Sir Richard eh.”she lied.

“Ah, ganon ba?”
“Opo. Ehh para po siyang si Sir Richard eh. Yung isang araw, nawala na lang po bigla.” She suddenly remembered her angel. Her heart is torn at his suddent leave. How she wishes he could’ve stayed longer.

“He must be important to you, then. You cried, eh. At, hija, don’t call him ‘Sir”, Richard will do.” Roberto said.

“Ah, eh siguro po nga po, importante siya.”

Esmeralda smirked. “I know what’s the deal, Maya. You loved this guy, ano? I can see you blush whenever you think of him.”
Maya could only bow her head. “Ay, hindi po! Ano, ahh, natural po kasi sa akin yung ganito.”


She might deny it but Esmeralda and Roberto know the truth behind those actions Maya is showing. They can clearly see that she is really smitten by this guy she was talking about. The two couldn’t help but feel a pang of regret.

If only Richard is here. I’m sure that he’ll sweep Maya off her feet. She might actually be the one for him. Those are the thoughts that kept running through the couple’s minds. She’s perfect for you, Richard. Why did your incident came in such an inconvenient time, son?


“Uhm, Tita, Tito, ayos lang po ba kung .. kung bisitahin ko po si Richard minsan?” Maya asked. She wanted to see him so badly. She wants to feel him with her hands again. She just needs to see him.

“Siyempre naman, hija!” Roberto obliged. “I’m sure matutuwa si Ricky nito. Ehh kailan mo ba balak bumisita?”

“Ehh hindi pa po ako sure kung kailan eh. Sasabihan ko na lang po kayo.”

“Sure hija, let us know, okay?” Esmeralda said. “Anyway, you should be going. Ginabi ka na dito oh! Thank you very much, hija.”’
“Wala po yun. Maraming salamat din po.” Thank you po, kasi nakilala ko si Richard.

“Ihahatid ka na namin sa labas. Joma will drive you home.”



Richard decided to stay the night at the park. Maya will be safe, Richard. She’s better off without you. She was better off without you.The truth is, he misses her terribly. He doesn’t know why but for a reason, his heart aches to see her face and to see her smile again.


I wonder if she’s home by now? Did she already take her meds? Is she sleeping early? How was her work, I wonder? Is she busy? She knows well enough that she can’t be stressed!


With those thoughts, he could only sigh. Did I ever cross her mind? Does she miss me like I miss her?


Those thoughts kept running through his mind, and in the end, he fell asleep.


It was already morning when he woke up he’s still in the park, where kids and adults stroll early that morning. He decided to stay there and to think of the steps on what he will do next. After all, he’s here for a reason. Maya might be on the top of his priorities but he doesn’t want to sacrifice his mission.


I have to go back to her condo tonight. I might as well make the most of my time left with Maya.





Maya could not help but to form thoughts as she stride through the white interior of the place. It’s quite hard for her to believe that she just asked Roberto if she can see Richard. Yes, she was happy when the old man obliged, but she could not help but be nervous on what will happen if she sees him.

She stood in front of the door. Room 425. This is finally the room, the very same room that Roberto told her. The room where Richard is admitted.

Earlier that day, Maya asked Roberto if she can visit Richard today. The old man happily said yes and told her to go to this hospital and to proceed to Room 425. And now, she’s finally here. Unsure of what to do, she nervously lifted her hands and knocked on the door. After a beat, she twisted the knob.

She was welcomed with Esmeralda’s smile. Gladness was all you could see from her face at the sight of Maya. She stood up to give her a hug.

“I’m glad you made it, hija. Roberto texted me this morning saying that you’ll come.” Esmeralda started.

Maya could only give her a smile. She’s way too nervous to trust her own tongue to say anything. The telephone near Richard’s bed rang. Esmeralda quickly answered it.

Maya was rooted to her spot. She can’t seem to move. A body is clearly seen on the bed, lying down though she couldn’t see the man’s face. Is it him?

“Hija, bababa lang ako saglit ha? May kailangan daw akong pirmahan eh. I hope you don’t mind if I leave you here.” Esmeralda said.

“Sige po, tita. Magbabantay lang po ako dito.” She softly said.

Esmeralda gave her a smile before turning to go to the man lying on the bed. “Ricky, bababa lang ako, ha? Nandito naman si Maya. She’s a friend of me and your father’s. I’ll be back, okay?” she said to her son. Maya was in awe of her sight. The scene is simply tearing her apart. She could clearly see that they love their son so much, to the point that they don’t want to give up as they see that one day, he will still wake up.

Before it finally sank to her, she was left alone inside the room. She slowly went near the bed, her heart beating loudly at each step. Tears started to form in her eyes when she finally got a clear view of the person lying down. It is indeed him, her guardian angel. It’s Richard.

His chinky eyes are closed indicating that he is in a deep sleep. Many apparatus are attached on his body that she doesn’t know if he really needs all of them. She was glad when he felt his warm hand around hers when she held them. Gently, she lifted his hand and kissed it, and pressed it on her cheek afterwards.

“Hi Richard. Kilala mo kaya ako? Ako si Maya dela Rosa. Dumating ka sa office ko isang araw tapos ang sabi mo sa’kin, guardian angel kita. Hindi nga ako naniwala nun eh, kasi feeling ko malakas lang yung trip mo nun. Tapos pinatunayan mo nga sa’kin na anghel ka nga kasi lumipad ka.” She continued as she sobbed. “Tapos ngayon, hindi ko na alam kung nasaan ka na ba talaga. Nawala ka kasi bigla eh.” Tears continued to fall from her eyes.

“I’m sorry, Richard. I’m so sorry.” She continued. “Inaway kasi kita eh. Ewan ko ba sa sarili ko. Ayokong tanggapin na may sakit ako. Pero alam mo, tama ka. Kasi kailangan ko ngang gumaling kasi maraming nag-aalala sa’kin. Sorry talaga.”

She wiped her tears using her other hand then turned to look at him, studying his face like it was the last memory she’s willing to have. “Ang drama kasi ng istorya natin eh!” she chuckled. Then she sighed. “Alam mo Richard, sobrang miss na kita. Wala nang nang-aasar sa’kin. Wala nang laging nangti-trip.” She sobbed before saying the next words. “Hindi ko na nakikita yung ngiti mo.”

She let go of his hand for a second to wipe her tears. “Bakit ba ko naiyak? Di ba dapat masaya ako kasi buhay ka? May .. may pag-asang magkakilala talaga tayo. Di ba, Richard? Gusto kong sabihin lahat ‘to sa’yo kaso inaalala ko yung misyon mo. Pero para sa’yo, maghihintay ako. Maghihintay ako, Chard.”


Maya decided to let go of his hand and fix herself, knowing that Esmeralda may come back soon. She quickly took her phone from her bag and took a picture of Richard’s face. Her heart fluttered when she saw that her phone finally captured something, something that she’s willing to hold on while she waits.




How did I do all of these?


Richard is now standing inside Maya’s condo, staring at her dining table.  Somehow, he managed to set a plate, with a spoon and a fork on the opposite sides. Kare-kare was at the table along with a plate of rice on its side. At the centre of the table, there’s a single sunflower placed in a vase, candles were lit beside the vase.


Seriously, Richard, how?


He kept asking his self. He doesn’t really know how. It was already afternoon when he decided to back to Maya’s condo. Food was at the top of his mind, concerned that his human might not be eating well enough since he left. Different tricks were showed from his sleeves as he finds ways of getting the food. Next was relaxation. In Maya’s condition, Richard knew that this part was critical. Being relaxed is the only way to relieve Maya from her stress and to avoid her phobia.


First he thought that his imagination would get the best of him, but he was mistaken. He met his imagination, he even surpassed it. He was really surprised with what he has done. Excitement was shown on his face as he imagines Maya’s reaction when she sees this.




A foolish grin crept through his face at the mention of her name. Ang dami talagang nagagawa kapag inspired, no Richard?


The sound of the door opening brought him back from his reverie. The woman he loves entered and stood frozen when at the sight of him.


Richard grinned. How he missed that face. How he missed her. “Welcome home.” He greeted.

Maya lifted her hand to pinch her cheek. Realizing there’s pain, she slowly walked in front of him. “Richard?” He nodded. “Kumain ka na ba? I hope not, because I prepared dinner.” He stood aside for Maya to see her dining area. He felt so proud of what he has done. He really wants Maya to be happy, but when he turned back to look at her, he just saw Maya staring at him, never taking her eyes off of her angel the moment she entered her condo.

“Are you okay, Maya?” he asked.

Maya could only nod.

“Eh bakit ganyan ka makatingin? Ngayon ka lang ata nakakita ng pogi eh!” he teased.

Maya replied with silence. Richard was alarmed by this. “Maya. Maya? Please say something. My thoughts are getting ahead of me again.”

This time, Richard could clearly see the tears forming in her eyes. “Maya.” He said, almost a whisper. “What’s wrong? Nakikita mo naman ako di ba? I know you can see me because I want you to. Are you okay? Did something happen while I was away? Geez!”

“Richard.” Maya whispered.

“Yes?” his head turned immediately when he heard her voice.
“I-ikaw na ba talaga ‘yan?”

Richard gave her a smile. “Yes. I’m here. I’m sorry if I left –“

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.” She said as tears rolled down on her face. It’s like she’s repeating what she said to the actual Richard minutes ago. Not knowing what’s going to support her, she sank down on her knees and covered her face with her hands. “Sorry talaga Richard.”

“Maya .. “ Richard sat on the floor so that he can level with Maya. “It’s okay. I’m sorry too. Dapat hindi kita iniwan.” He said but those words were unable to stop Maya from crying. “Hey, tama nang iyak. I don’t want to see you like this.” You’re just making me regret that I died sooner and that I can’t comfort you.

“I’m sorry, Richard.” I’m sorry. Hindi lang dahil sa inaway kita. Ang dami ko nang nalaman tungkol sa’yo na alam kong hindi ko dapat nalaman. Dapat hindi ka na lang bumalik para makabalik ka na sa katawan mo. Baka mamaya, masabi ko yung ibang detalye at maalala mo lahat. Tapos ang misyon mo hindi mo pa magawa. Kung alam mo lang kung gaano kakumplikado ang lahat. Dapat hindi ka na lang bumalik.

“It’s okay. Let’s just forget what happened. Tahan na. Bawal kang ma-stress diba? You know, if I can just touch you, I would wipe those tears away.”

Maya was now trying to stifle her sobs.

“Stop crying. Nakakahiya sa poging anghel sa tapat mo.”

Maya finally laughed. “Eto na, eto na.” She wiped her tears away and slowly stood up.

“There.” Richard said. “Come. You should eat.” Then he descended to go to the dining area.

Maya remained standing in that position, watching Richard move.


Maghihintay ako, Richard.


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